Thursday, December 27, 2012

Universal Truths in Metal--What?

First of all, I use the term 'metal' sort of universally for the genres of loud rock music that I enjoy listening to.

The two songs that I wanna get into are sort of more of a progressive/djent style... 'djent' is the name of the style of music that uses 'chuggy' or palm-muted guitar riffs. Once you hear something djenty, you sort of get the hang of it.


This first video is by THE CONTORTIONIST, who I had the pleasure of interviewing during the Summer Slaughter Tour of 2012 with Will Ruehle.


In the interview, the vocalist Jonathan Carpenter describes their sound as sort of spacey, but their new album INTRINSIC focuses on several universal truths, and examines the human relationship with our universe. Jon's lyrics explore a lot of cool ideas and concepts. He is interested in not only how small we are in relation to some universal processes, but how big we are to some, as well.


THE CONTORTIONIST is one of several metal/progressive/djent/groove bands that uses their music as a means of exploring and sharing a higher consciousness of ourselves and the universe.


Now, regardless of whether or not you dig my kind of music, I think you should give this video a shot. The intro is melodic, not heavy! So if scream vocals aren't your thing, it'll be OK.


Here's the video, and then I'm gonna break down some of the lyrics and hopefully help others to understand why I am so enthralled with this kind of music.




Here are the lyrics:


tiny pieces taking steps towards covariance

how primitive are we still
widen your peripheral
socialized rules scale back progression
searching for the answers
there's a universe inside us all
every passing lifetime important as the last
a tiny grain against a finely tuned grid
see where you've come from
release my senses; they only hold me back
abstracted as forms derived from the
deeeeperrrr orrrrderrrr
searching for the answers
there's a universe inside us all
every passing lifetime important as the last
secret dimensional noise
disregard direction
horizons follow entropy
disregard direction
our microstate feeds their energies
disregard direction

Wow.


There a few of these lines that I wanted to highlight simply because they acknowledge some very real concepts, universal ones--


1. "How primitive are we still" -- I love this lyric. As 'advanced' as we are as humans, these guys realize that we still have a long way to go. We're still learning that our reality can be manipulated on all scales, from the quantum level up. Society is still working towards 'tolerance,' whether it be of race, origin, sexual orientation, drugs, whatever--we're still working on getting along! We haven't even really been able to see what we're capable of because of these silly conventions to which so many people adhere. We need to move on. This way of thinking, this way of life that fails to recognize universal truths is on its way out. And yet, we're taking our sweet time moving on. We're still very primitive because we THINK primitively.


2. "There's a universe inside us all" -- oh, yes, yes there is. If you refer back to my first post, you'll see a picture of a brain cell juxtaposed with a computer model of our expanding universe. I think the term 'universe' has been used so long to describe what we understand to be 'space' that it's lost its real meaning, its true meaning. UNIVERSE is the name we gave to this expanse of space that we live in. This 'universe' as we know it exists as a construct of the mind. That's why our best understanding of it is a bubble-like space that is expanding from a particle that was once the size of a pea. Well, that's an awfully crude way of looking at one of the most genius constructions ever conceived. The universe inside all of us is the same universe we live in! It comes from within us; it is a projection of our mind (which you'll see in this second video). Our universe, our life experience as we know it is a direct result of our brain's inner workings. Everything you see, touch, hear, smell--these are all electrical signals being processed by a super computer that is so good at what it does that we don't even know our brain is doing it. We're living a movie, or a DREAM, if you will. Think of our universe as "limbo" from the movie INCEPTION. Our universe is raw dream space, raw data that exists at our fingertips. And it comes from inside of us. The universe as humanity experiences it is a direct result of our (humanity's) collective consciousness. Don't believe me? Watch this video where they use quantum physics to TRY and explain it. You'll find that science is still inadequate. "How primitive are we still?"




3. "Abstracted as forms derived from the deeper order"-- we are forms that have all come from the same pea-sized particle that started this universe. We are literally made up of the same atoms and space dust as the rest of the planets, solar system, asteroid belts, etc. We are literally the exact same material as everything else in the universe. However, because of certain energetic circumstances, vibrational patterns and of course evolution over an infinite amount of time, we have grown apart. Species have been formed, other planets, entire solar systems. We are vastly different from so much of our surroundings, and yet we are all the same stuff. The 'deeper order' to which they refer is this sort of basic, quantum-level infrastructure that holds our universe together. This deeper order exists, and we know this because scientists recently discovered the Higgs Boson, or "God Particle." This particle, which isn't really a particle at all, is the energetic life-force (kind of like Star Wars) that binds our reality and our seemingly tangible world together. This quantum-level of reality-existence is where science starts to disappear and the raw dream space--the matrix--that is our universe is more apparent.


......


This second video is by a band called PERIPHERY. These guys are nuts! I also got to see them with Will at the Summer Slaughter tour of 2012, and they tore it up. If THE CONTORTIONIST is one of the bands that gets me into a reflective/pensive/absorb-the-universe kind of mood, PERIPHERY is the pump-up counterpart to that universal acknowledgement.


This song is called "Froggin Bullfish."




Shut out from this ancient truth 

We are blind inside 
Migrant souls from a distant world 
There's an absence of knowledge 
Reaching out for the pulse of our own 
Now the time has come to awaken the prophecy 
Buried underneath the veil of illusion 
Given a life of freedom, only to neglect what we should feel. 
Tortured by negative consciousness 
Feeling our disorder hit the froggin' wall 
Escape some way... Awake! 
Hallucinating desire 
Chase the obscene 
Travel these wonders far beyond 
Burn down the walls that bind you to this cage 
Or be detained 
For once, a glimpse at freedom would feel divine 
A break from this feeble mind 
My fucking mind! 
Negative scenes are just the projections of our own dark fears 
Playing the victim is not what will bring us back to salvation 
Back to reality 
What is it they all seek? 
Be it the wealth or the throne? 
Live your life as a drone! 
Reaching out for the pulse of our own 
So high... above what they all seem to know (what they know) 
Subliminal signs 
A message that's unrefined 
Soaring above what they all seem to know 
Someday replay the purgatory life you lead 
Chase the obscene 
Travel these wonders far beyond 
Burn down the walls that bind you to this cage 
Or be detained 
Travel these wonders far beyond 
Chase the obscene (travel these wonders far beyond) 


A few lyrics upon which I'd like to comment:


1. "Reaching out for the pulse of our own" -- this is exactly what I'm doing with this dad-burn blog. Eventually, I guess I felt like there had to be more people than me that feel the way I do, or that relate similarly to our universal reality. I think PERIPHERY, or at least Spencer Sotelo (vocalist) can identify with feeling somewhat separate from the societal reality. It's as though this lyric is saying most people are deadened, or asleep--UNCONSCIOUS--of their true universal reality; and for those who have discovered that things aren't quite what they seem, there's a sense of isolation that results. I mean, imagine living in a social reality of which you have to be a functioning part in order to sustain your existence, and yet all the while you know that so much of how we could be living is misunderstood. It's sort of a dualistic reality, which makes for a dualistic life. I know that it's hard sometimes for me to feel like a real part of a world that is concerned with so many trivial things. That's not the reality that I want; it's not the reality that I know to be true. So, "reaching out for a pulse of our own" is Sotelo's way of saying, "Hey, are you alive? Is there anybody else who is awake? Conscious? Is there anyone else that knows what I'm talking about?" And it's not holier-than-thou, or damning in any way. 

2. "Negative scenes are just the projection of our own dark fear" -- this lyric acknowledges one of the greatest universal concepts explored in the video above involving quantum physics and the measurement problem: our reality, our life experience is a direct result of our own thoughts and conscious will. You experience what you project for yourself to experience. Basically, if you live your life as a negative nancy, your experience will likely be miserable and tough. By exhibiting aggression or frustration, the universe will meet you with that same resistance--literally your own emotions directed back at you. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to make sense of this; we live this on the reg. If you're positive about a situation, usually the result is positive. And if it's not, you respond positively and don't let it get you down. That's a life truth, but there is definitely a universal truth / science to it. There is an excellent video of a Chi master demonstrating his power. He uses his pupils' aggression and directs it back at them, rendering them unable to affect him. If you project negativity, your life experience will be negative. If you project positivity, love, and good vibes, then your experience will be as such. It will not depend on whether or not others do this, because your response will be positive. Therefore, nothing will get you 'down;' nothing will stop you from realizing your fullest potential. 


3. "Playing the victim is not what will bring us back to salvation, back to reality. What is it they all seek? Be it the wealth or the throne? Live your life as a drone!" -- This is an important one. We as humans are conscious observers of our universe, but we must also realize (as stated above) that we are conscious creators. Supposedly "God" made us in his image--we have the same powers and capacity for creation, love, etc. that a god would. We are creating the universe as we go! We're not victims! We are not subject to this harsh, unforgiving, disorderly universe--quite the opposite, actually. We are the ones--each of us, individually--responsible for making our reality what we want it to be. But just as we are able to manipulate our reality, our universe, so are we able to be manipulated by others! This is a harsher universal truth, but it's one that is already apparent to you. We're subject to a reality in which we are not able to affect much of a change (or so we think). We're stuck in college, getting a degree, getting a job, finding a significant other that you can stand to be with, starting a family, working hard, getting benefits, and eventually retiring during old age. WHAT THE HELL! That's lame! I'm sorry, but that sucks. I don't want to have to wait to enjoy life until I'm too old and saggy to do anything about it. Fuck that. Our own government has us convinced that we have to vote to affect a change, and we can only do that every four years. And we don't get to vote on important things like who to send aid money to, who not to give tax cuts to, who not to go to war with, etc. We get to vote on silly things. And the rest of the time, we're just supposed to sit and accept whatever reality is chosen for us? Hell no. I am a conscious human being, and I have the ability to change and affect my reality. I do this on a regular basis by making simple, conscious decisions. And yet we feel like we can't do anything! We feel that we're too small for big problems and that we as individuals are powerless! THERE IS NOTHING MORE POWERFUL THAN AN INDIVIDUAL. Think about the man at Tiananmen Square. Think about Ghandi. Think about Martin Luther King. Think about Mother Theresa. Think about Jesus. These individuals affected real change because they believed that they could. They knew their own power, and they decided that it would not be limited. There's a Steve Jobs quote that I love: 

"Here's to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes... the ones who see things differently -- they're not fond of rules... You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the only thing you can't do is ignore them because they change things... they push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius, because the ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do." -Steve Jobs

This is Me. It's You, too. Steve Jobs put it pretty eloquently, but let's be real--we are all capable of achieving change, great change. PERIPHERY says don't live your life as a drone, don't be a sheep. Don't live your life according to the will of others. If your will is good, others will see it and follow by example. You can inspire people to change. Maybe I have with something I've written in this blog, or on my computer.


Either way, I've changed my life experience for ME because I'm better understanding mySelf and others, the universe, reality--everything--through writing it here. Even if no one gets anything out of the work I've put into this page, it doesn't matter. I did it for me to better understand what I want for my life.


This page is specific to the way I feel, to the way that I think. But we're all humans, and I know that others have experienced the truths by which I try to live. By sharing this, I am affecting my will, making my intentions known, and guiding my life path through this universe-reality. It's fine if you disagree or see something differently; that is good! But there is no substitute for discovering yourSelf, affecting your will, sharing your knowledge, truth, love of life and all things universal. Do not be a victim. Take your reality by storm and live the life you want. You can have it. All you have to do is make a conscious choice. And it's yours. PERIPHERY, you guys nailed it.


Love and peace,

John












Wednesday, December 26, 2012

A Restored Faith In Humanity

I'm the first person that will tell you that the world sucks. It's a dark place with shitty people, and we're all fucked because we're too selfish to stop and help each other. We're far too concerned with our own stupid shit to which we give WAY too much meaning. We ignore the real world problems like hunger, genocide, racism, persecution of religious or sexual tendencies, etc.

We see it on the news all the time. We're doomed. The government is going to destroy our lives as we know it (as long as we don't do it first), and the world will become this even more disgusting place in which the relationships between human beings is 'dog-eat-dog' and every man for himself. 

We as human beings do not want to feel this way. We don't want to be depressed. We don't want to be cynical. We don't want to feel like we cannot affect a real change. We don't want to feel like we are of little consequence. 

And yet, we do. We still feel like this sometimes. Most of the time? All of the time? 

I know I did. I hated life. It was a huge fucking disappointment for me as soon as I realized that there was more to life than getting into a good school. 

I became a horrible cynic, depressed, defeated. I didn't care about normal things that I enjoyed. I didn't care about going to class. "For what?" I asked myself. 

So that I can learn about a world that is fucked? So that I can better realize and fully understand the continuous rape of our planet and its people? No. I resigned to a sad, bitterness that made me difficult to be around. And I'm sorry if I ever did that to you. I know I did it to a lot of my friends and family, and sometimes I still do. I apologize sincerely. 

You see, I was wrapped up in learning. Not about Spanish, or whatever else--scholastic things, hobbies--no, no, no. 

I explored conspiracies, UFOs, government cover-ups, assassinations, plans to diminish the world population through violent means, the New World Order, exploitation of peoples--entire countries--on our own behalf. 

I was enthralled with all of the darkest parts of humanity, the deepest darkest secrets. All of the terrible shit that no one should ever hear about--that's what I spent my time thinking about. 

I let my own anger and resentment of those terrible aspects of the world and our 'reality' change the way I felt and related to other human beings. I became cynical, angry, depressed, and eventually I felt like I wasn't even a real part of it anymore. 

I was "turned to the Dark Side." 

And I've lived that way pretty much since 2010. 

But through further investigating my Self, meditating, writing, exploring what it is to be a part of humanity, and feeling DRIVEN to change these terrible aspects of the world, my thinking has since changed. 

I read a book called Conversations with God by Neale Donald Walsch.  In this book, he has conversations with "God," his true Self, and he finally comes to a greater understanding that completely alters his world view. 

It's funny because I started writing in the exact some way two years prior to reading his book. I had already written about a lot of the concepts and ideas presented in his book! I felt so crazy sitting there reading it because sometimes there would be entire word-for-word phrases that he used that I had already written mySelf. This is how I knew that what I was reading was more than it was. I bought a highlighter just so I could underline some of the experiences that Walsch and I had shared, even though they were years apart. It was truth.

 I loved the book, but I came to a similar realization on my own. Through writing to myself, much like Walsch did, I found a greater connection to humanity and reality. Our world. Our Selves. My own Self. 

And I realized that this "gloom and doom" way of communicating and interacting with reality wasn't working out for me; it wasn't working out for what I wanted for my Self. 

So, I decided I would try to be positive, emit positive energy, good vibes, and live in a way in which I always felt like I had done the right thing. 

Since then, life has gotten EASIER. It's so easy! All you have to do is decide to live to your fullest maximum potential and realize that nothing will stop you! The government won't, taxes won't, people won't. 

People want others to succeed. At the very core of us, we're engineered for love. That love is universal. It is the strongest bond there is in our reality. And we have the capacity to create it. For others or ourselves, we can create it from nothing. It is merely a choice. 

Now for me, this was tough because I was so cynical and down on most things, that it made it difficult for me to love. I said in an earlier post that Someone Great told me that I must not forget to love. I love that Someone, and that Someone loves me. We are connected in that way; we share a bond that no one, nothing can penetrate. It is love, but in a universal sense. It is a deeper connection. Love is the realization of a deeply energetic connection that physically and metaphysically exists between two people. Or a family. Or two best friends. OR ALL OF US. 

But what took me a long time to realize is that WE ALL LOVE EACH OTHER. We do. 

Some realize it more than others, and they display and live in that love on a daily basis. You know these people. They inspire you. They make you feel loved. They make you feel like you're a part of this greater interconnected humanity. 

These people are saints, they are angels. They are just people, but to us, they're more than that. They are our saviors. Jesus was one of these people. Ghandi was one of these people. Mother Theresa. 

I am one of these people. You are one of these people. We are these people. 

We all are. 

And the sooner we realize our amazing capacity for love and understanding, the sooner the world in which we live will become a Heaven on Earth. 

Christians, I'm gonna pick on you. I hate the idea that you have to die in order to get to know God, Jesus or Heaven. I hate the idea that you must go to church to hear the word of God. I hate the idea that as soon as church is out, it's back to the "dog-eat-dog" way of life. 

I can criticize because I lived that myself. I know what that feels like. And it's not satisfying. 

Through loving each other, we can know God. God is love. God is in us. We are love. We share and create meaning for each other through a strong bond or connection called love. 

If everyone knew this and lived it, we would live in a heaven on Earth. You don't need church to prove it to you. Church is great, and it's a great tool for sharing love and remembering your deeper connection to humanity and ourSelves, but it's not everything. Plenty of people who go to church leave and act like assholes. They forget to love. 

So today, I wanted to share two video clips with you, both talking about love. The first one is a series of clips from one of Jim Carrey's speeches about his realization of this deeper connection to humanity. It's really cool. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u4M3wlQK6VI

(If you read my previous post about FEELING, this clip will prove it)

The second one is a little bit longer. It's about an amazing teacher who has also realized his deeper connection to humanity. Only his own son and daughter helped him to do it. It's a beautiful story that will make your heart grow "3x its normal size"-- 

http://www.nytimes.com/video/2012/12/24/science/100000001947354/wrights-law.html

I'll end there for now, but I implore you--feel love. Give love. Receive it. Know your very real connection to all of us. I love you. I love me and my Self. It's a beautiful life we've been given, but some of us have forgotten what it's about. I'm doing my best to remember, and I'm on my way to creating the reality, the world, the love that I want to live in and share. 

Love your friend and human counterpart,

John 

Do You Ever Feel...?

This is a bit of a long one, so there's a "Too Long, Didn't Read" line at the bottom to sum it up in a horribly ineffective way.

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K-12th grade--I was on top of the world. I was happy.

I got good grades, had a girlfriend, played in bands, traveled, acted/sang/danced, was a techie, played lacrosse, and held leadership positions in almost all of the clubs and orgs with which I was involved.

I was a generally happy individual. I worked hard to fulfill my current life goal: getting into college.

If I could get into a good college, then I'd be set for life. I'd learn everything, then get a job, earn money, travel, meet the love of my life, have perfect children and lead a perfect, happy life.

But when I got to school in the fall of 2009, things changed.

I didn't fit in. I didn't feel right. I didn't get that immediate satisfaction of feeling like, "I'm in the right place, and things for me are working out." That's what I expected to happen, simply because I am Me, and I worked really hard for that feeling. But it never came.

I didn't make friends that I connected with right away; I didn't feel as connected or involved as I did in high school. I felt alone and disappointed.

I didn't know what I was doing with my life anymore. I wasn't super-busy with school, a social life, a girlfriend, extracurriculars--I had a lot of time to think and reexamine what it was that I was doing, where I was going.

And when I didn't find that same satisfaction in college with the things I did in high school, I sort of lost touch with that happiness that I worked so hard to construct.

I was a pessimist. I don't know why I was predisposed to being negative or thinking negatively. Nothing in my life had gone completely horribly; I had all of the things that I need for "happiness," or so I thought.

And yet, I still felt isolated and deceived.

I spent a lot of time thinking. I would get on the internet, Facebook, Gmail, whatever--looking for some kind of satisfaction, or validation for what I was doing.

I didn't feel like I should have or wanted to, so I knew something was wrong.

I met some girls on my hall and forged really great friendships with them, and with my roommate at the time. But even after I had someone to spend time with and talk to, I still felt incomplete.

One day, out of nowhere--literally I have no clue to this day how I felt it so strongly, being that I haven't felt it since--this feeling came over me, and pulled me. I felt something growing inside my chest,  but somehow it was coming from myself. My Self, I guess.

It felt great! It was this huge swell of a beautiful feeling, one that I don't know how to describe.
I felt BIG. I felt like, for whatever reason, this feeling was for Me and it was driving me to action.

What action? I have no idea. I literally would listen to music that I loved, or sing, or think to myself and I would ride this wave of emotion that remained unsettled inside my body.

I experienced this phenomenon for several weeks on and off before I started giving it some real thought.

I was up hella late, and ran into my friend Alanna in one of the study lounges in my dorm. At the time, I was riding that wave of raw emotion, welled up inside my body, and I tried to describe it to her.

After doing my best to vocalize this indescribable feeling, which was neither 'good' nor 'bad,' but STRONG, I still felt like I hadn't done it justice. So, I started writing.

I literally opened up a Word document on my computer, sat down and tried to put what I was feeling into English.

This single creative act is what started me down a path of consciousness and greater understanding of myself and my Self. This word document now contains 230-some pages of raw emotion, thought, memories, wisdom, Truth, observations and realizations.

I would like to share with you the very first piece of that document. This selection is from that very night when I couldn't do that feeling justice by explaining to Alanna. This is what I wrote:

"I feel my emotions to the fullest. There is a gap somewhere in my being. I don’t know what it is. It’s love. It’s God. I don’t know. I feel this huge swell of love or happiness. But I can’t define it and it’s driving me insane. I wanna be in love. I’m happy, but I want to BE HAPPY. I feel my emotions at full capacity—I want to live them at full capacity. I want to kiss someone. I want to tell you-know-who how I feel. Again. I want to kiss. I want to hug. I want the whole world to feel as explosive and creative and hungry as I do. I feel like there’s this whole BOMB of creativity and feeling and initiative within me, but for whatever reason I can’t let it out. I’m in college. Stuck taking classes and resorting to listening to music to define my feelings—I feel like I’m sampling the love and happiness I want to share when I listen to songs that make you swell up with brightness and warmth. It’s music. It’s love. It’s everything I want to do. I don’t want to major in Spanish. I want a life in Spanish. I want to help people. I want to donate blood. I want to go to countries and adopt children.  It’s like this.


Words are flowing out like
endless rain into a paper cup
They slither while they pass
They slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow waves of joy
are drifting through my open mind
Possessing and caressing me

 Images of broken light which
dance before me like a million eyes
That call me on and on across the universe
Thoughts meander like a
restless wind inside a letter box
they tumble blindly as they make their way
across the universe.

Sounds of laughter shades of life
are ringing through my open ears
exciting and inviting me
Limitless undying love which
shines around me like a million suns
It calls me on and on across the universe

THIS LIMITLESS UNDYING LOVE IS WHAT I FEEL. AND IT DOES CALL TO ME. I DON’T UNDERSTAND IT. I CAN’T EXPLAIN IT."

(after two pages of writing down actions that give me feelings like the one I had, I still hadn't nailed it on the head yet)


"It’s feeling all of this shit and not being able to do anything to release it or explain it or share it. I just feel like, “AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!” And then it’s gone for a while until I feel it again. It’s weird. 

I feel like I could walk up to anybody anywhere any time of any ethnicity and make a new friend, or learn something. I have no shame. I would do anything just for the challenge (at least I would try). I don’t care if I look like an idiot. What do I have to prove? Who do I have to impress? ME. If I’m content with who I am and I know that I am doing Good, I am ok with whatever other people have to say or think. I love being spontaneous and doing weird stuff for my own enjoyment. I like scary movies. I like being pumped about stuff. I love being excited about something I/we just came up with and then DOING IT. “We’re really doing it, Harry!” I love reading about weird things you don’t really know about and then understanding it. Like Buddhism, or the Sabbath, or whatever. I like to learn."

"When I try to use this URGE of creative feeling or happiness or love its really none of those things I cant explain it. Its just this EPIC feeling of ------- ?????? ------- I dont know. It is a sense of purpose. I literally dream (as in have dreams) about standing up for whats right and finding love."
 




"I can’t find a way to express the ways that I feel, this one BIG swollen emotion that keeps from sleeping. I just get on my computer and type for hours, thousands of words at a time—sometimes I only type two words. I can’t rap about it. I can’t sing about it. I can’t play the ukulele and find any solace from this feeling. I can’t play guitar and quench the emotional thirst that I have for this WHATEVER THE FUCK IT IS. When I jam with Andrew and Ben and I’m banging on the drums, I can glimpse this—but at that time I didn’t know this feeling. It’s like, music I feel has a strong or key part in it. It’s not about music, but music helps me feel a little bit of it. It kind of appeases this emotion or great want – whatever this is. I feel like the only song that sort of explains (and it doesn’t begin to explain it) is Across the Universe by the beatles. Let me break it down. 

Words are flowing out like
endless rain into a paper cup

IT’S LIKE THERE IS THIS LITTLE OFFICE/CUBICLE PAPER CUP, THE POINTED ONES AND THERE IS THIS FUCKING TSUNAMI OF THOUGHT AND EMOTION AND POWER AND CREATIVITY AND FEELING THAT JUST SLAMS IT. IT’S LIKE MY ABILITY TO EXPRESS THE TSUNAMI IS THE SIZE OF THAT PAPER CUP AND JUST AS INEFFECTIVE.

They slither while they pass
They slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow waves of joy

POOLS OF SORROW, WAVES OF JOY. I’M DRENCHED IN THIS DISSATISFACTION UNTIL I FEEL THIS WAVE OF FEELING, THE ONE THAT I CAN’T EXPLAIN. IT’S LIKE I’M HAPPY MOST OF THE TIME, BUT THEN THIS WAVE HITS ME AND I FEEL LIKE THE TIME IS NOW—WHATEVER IT IS—IT’S NOW. PURPOSE. POINT. A DUTY. FEELING. WHATEVER IT IS. I CAN’T EXPLAIN IT.
 
are drifting through my open mind
Possessing and caressing me

 Images of broken light which
dance before me like a million eyes
That call me on and on across the universe
Thoughts meander like a
restless wind inside a letter box

THOUGHTS MEANDERING. THIS RESTLESS WIND IN THIS TINY LETTERBOX IS MY MIND. I CAN’T EXPRESS MY THOUGHTS—THEY CAN’T GET OUT OF THIS BOX! THEYR’E CONFINED TO THIS DARK SPACE, THIS DISMAL BOX. I CAN’T GET THEM OUT. I FEEL THEM AND THINK THEM AND THEY CONSUME MY BRAIN. I CAN’T SLEEP OR CONCENTRATE. THEY GO EVERYWHERE—WHAT I’M GOING TO DO WHEN I’M OLDER—WHAT I’D LIKE TO LEARN TO PLAY—WHAT I WANT TO SING. IT’S LIKE IF I COULD REALLY SING, LIKE REALLY WELL, THAT MIGHT HELP. TO ME SINGING IS LIKE FLYING. YOU FEEL ON TOP OF THIS LAYER OF FEELING THAT YOU JUST FLOAT ON WHILE YOU SING. THAT KIND OF COULD MAYBE APPEASE THIS FEELING IF I COULD SING. MAYBE. NOT REALLY, BUT IT WOULD BE SATISFYING TO BELT THIS SONG FROM A MOUNTAIN TOP WITH A BEAUTIFUL SUNSET IN THE DISTANCE. NO WORRIES. JUST SONG.
 
they tumble blindly as they make their way
across the universe.

THEY TUMBLE BLINDLY. THERE IS NO DIRECTION TO MY THOUGHTS. THEY’RE OUT THERE. I SEE THEM AND FEEL THEM, BUT THEY’RE MOVING. DYNAMIC. EVERCHANGING. THERE’RE TOO MANY OF THEM. I CAN’T EVEN ENUMERATE HALF OF WHAT I FEEL OR WANT TO DO. THAT’S WHAT THIS PAPER IS ABOUT.

Sounds of laughter shades of life
are ringing through my open ears
exciting and inviting me

THIS IS WHAT I FEEL. LIFE. LAUGHTER. WILL. FRIENDS. LIFE. YASMINE KATHLEEN AND CHELSEA. ALL OF THE MEMORIES WE’VE SHARED. ALL OF IT. IT’S SO MUCH. I CAN’T STAND IT. I CAN’T STAND TO NOT HAVE IT. I FEEL LIKE IT’S NOT HAVING IT AT SCHOOL THAT MAYBE MAKES ME FEEL LIKE THIS. THIS LONGING FOR FRIENDSHIP AND GENUINE LOVE AND WARMTH AND BEAUTY THAT I FELT THAT I HAD AT THE END OF HIGH SCHOOL. THAT COULD BE IT. MAYBE. I THINK IT’S BIGGER THAN THAT THOUGH. I FEEL LIKE IT’S BIGGER THAN THAT HAPPINESS THAT I HAD. I FEEL LIKE IT’S GOT MORE GRAVITY; IT’S MORE IMPORTANT AND IMPENDING.

Limitless undying love which
shines around me like a million suns
It calls me on and on across the universe

THIS LIMITLESS UNDYING LOVE MIGHT BE WHAT I FEEL. I CAN’T DESCRIBE IT. I FEEL LIKE I’M BEING LED ACROSS THE UNIVERSE—ACROSS MY MIND—ACROSS MY HEART, MY FEELINGS—I FEEL LIKE I’M GOING SOMEWHERE. THERE IS PURPOSE. I DON’T UNDERSTAND IT THOUGH.

I FEEL LIKE THIS FEELING IS BIGGER THAN ME. MAYBE IT IS GOD. MAYBE IT IS A CALLING. WHAT IS IT. WHAT IS MY PURPOSE. THIS SEEMS SO CLICHÉ BUT I DON’T KNOW IF ANYONE HAS FELT THIS BIG BEFORE. LIKE BIG. LIKE EPIC. IMPORTANT. WITH PURPOSE. DETERMINATION. I NEED TO KNOW. I NEED TO KNOW.

It’s like pent-up emotions. I kind of want to cry just to cry. Not because I’m sad, but just to let some of it out, like a tap almost. I’m thinking about going to the Varner house on campus just so I can have someone to talk to. I don’t think I could explain it to Kathleen or Will. They’re the only ones I would really normally confide in, but I don’t think I could get it across to them without them feeling like they really don’t understand. If they said they did, I don’t think I would be able to believe that they know what I’m talking about. This is the first time (the first time being this school year) that I have really experienced this kind of thing.

I kind of felt it after I broke up with Frannie and came home from work at the Pearson job and put on some good music and got in the shower and realized, “I’m happy. I can be happy.” That was a hard time for me and that was the first time that I had been genuinely happy for no apparent reason." 

--I've never shared this with anyone before, but now that I better understand it, I think it's important that I do. 

This feeling was my calling. And not like "God" calling me, or whatever, but it was my Self! I was reaching out to myself. This inner Me finally emerged and decided that things needed to be different for me, for the way I think and feel and relate to others, if I was going to do anything about it. 

So I started writing, and I've continued to do so. I write not so much what I think, but more of what I feel. 

People spend so much time thinking, just as I did, and it didn't get me anywhere. It made me depressed and cynical. I still am sometimes. 


But experiencing that feeling--it was a FULLNESS. Imagine feeling truly fulfilled, but not as in "done," or "finished." Imagine feeling fulfilled, so much so that you must share it or drown in it. Imagine feeling like everything you do had the greatest and utmost importance. That's how I felt.

I almost felt selfish, but I knew that this was something bigger than my own understanding of it. It was bigger than Me and it still is. I'm still trying to figure my Self out, and what that feeling that led me to all of this writing and thinking was.

I guess the point of sharing all of this is that I hope someone out there knows what the hell I'm talking about, hahahaha.

I don't understand really what I'm supposed to be doing with the way that I feel, or my writing or thoughts. I don't know why I started this blog. The word "blog" and the thought of "blogging" makes me feel so inaffective and shallow, but I don't know what else to do about these things. Where else could I put this?

But I do know that there have to be more people that know this feeling that I am describing. This is a feeling of humanity. It's as big as humanity. And it's universal for humanity.

This feeling is what led me to action, to writing, to thinking critically about my world and my reality, my Self and the universe--it cannot be ignored. It shouldn't be ignored. Ignoring this feeling is denying your true Self, your true Reality, and your true connection that we do not yet fully understand to our Earth and our human counterparts. We are made up of the same consciousness. Don't ignore it! Share it with others and create the reality in which you wish to live. This feeling has led me to believe that I am capable of doing just that. And I do. Every day. Consciously. It's a decision that I have to make, and when I do--I feel fulfilled.


TLDR: This feeling that I felt, the one that drove me to question myself, my Self, our world, our universe, reality, humanity, spirituality, purpose, etc.--basically the feeling that started my life as I know it now--THIS FEELING IS A DEEPER CONNECTION WITH HUMANITY. This feeling is a deeper understanding and appreciation for Us as a whole. We are connected, energetically, spiritually, whatever. This feeling is a connection that you feel to another person magnified by 10^infinity. This is the feeling of consciousness. It's not a feeling; instead, it is FEELING. It's a greater connection to ourselves, to humanity.

For real--TLDR: This feeling makes you feel like every human being is your brother or sister, mom or dad. You feel that if an injustice is being done to anyone, it is YOUR responsibility to change it. And it is. This feeling is a stronger connection to all human beings. We are connected. This feeling makes you realize this. And if we all did, the world would have to change. Things would be better. We would lift each other up and be fulfilled.



Thursday, December 20, 2012

A Perfect Example...

...of why I am doing this. Yes, I'm doing it for myself to facilitate discussion and higher thinking, but nothing feels better than getting to read and RELATE to others through consciousness and understanding. I'd like to share with you some of the thoughts of someone who is very near and dear to my heart.

I sent her some of these thoughts that I've shared here, and her response was something too great not to share with you all.

She said,

"I too am aware of so many selfish behaviors in myself, and those around me. Being pregnant has really highlighted it. The first thing that really comes to mind in response to this meditation is, you are going to be an excellent father.  Not only do you recognize the need for discipline, you see the boundaries necessary in parenting. I do not think many in our generation can say that. It is also incredibly apparent your concern is not for yourself, but for others. On top of all that, you love freely, and that is not an easy thing to do.

When I think about God and how small I am in comparison it gets to be overwhelming because my mind immediately acknowledges my selfish nature. The beast I cannot fight completely. I can feed it and keep it docile, but sadly it’s always there. This is a humbling experience, but then I recognize that I am patting myself on the back once again for being some sort of noble character trait. Here we are back at square one of my selfishness. Humility is not easy. If  you think you are humble, then you can’t be. Although we can’t all be selfless, we can try. I agree it is our responsibility to show patience and forgiveness to all people. We have to humble ourselves first. I hate to be the person to hash tag C.S. Lewis a million times, but your writings and perceptions have such a quality that reminds me of him. In my Philosophy class at Liberty we were required to read 4 of his books. I would recommend them all to you, but I know you have plenty of other reading to do. In Mere Christianity he talks about many of the topics you touched on, specifically our choice in our behaviors and recognizing others matter too.
"I would much rather say that every time you make a choice you are turning the central part of you, the part of you that chooses, into something a little different from what it was before. And taking your life as a whole, with all your innumerable choices, all your life long you are slowly turning this central thing either into a heavenly creature or into a hellish creature: either into a creature that is in harmony with God, and with other creatures, and with itself, or else into one that is in a state of war and hatred with God, and with its fellow creatures, and with itself. To be the one kind of creature is heaven: that is, it is joy and peace and knowledge and power. To be the other means madness, horror, idiocy, rage, impotence, and eternal loneliness. Each of us at each moment is progressing to the one state or the other."
-Mere Christianity by C.S Lewis
There is so much I want to say to you, and I want to stay on topic as much as possible, so forgive me if I stray. I struggle with wanting to write my heart and find it very difficult, not because I’m scared, but because it’s all too big. I wish I could just let you borrow it and you could see that I think you have an incredible ability to reason and I could pour out all my ideas to you.
 It seems to me you are right about having a part of God in us when we believe and even without believing there is the longing to fill that space.  I’ve been so confused at times about how it could all be possible, the world, life, and death. Science may not feel that God aligns with its theories, but I disagree. I think God is science. He is answering the questions easily, but our brains can’t function within the logic of God. I guess that is why lots of people find it easier to only maintain their logic of being selfish. It isn’t messy, it doesn’t need work, and it’s like breathing. When the selfishness backfires they are already in so deep that they simply blame it on something or someone else and fail to open their eyes to the pain they caused. When you think about boiling it all down into one precise question, “Why is it so hard to believe in a God that would sacrifice His only Son just to save a selfish world all at the simple request that we forgive, love, and believe?” The answer is because we don’t want to. It doesn’t fit into the plan we have for ourselves. It all goes back to that hideous idea of “self”. We can’t shake it from our vocabulary.
I’m glad you feel lighter after thinking and purging your burdens. I think it is good to feel depressed occasionally, especially when it leads to deep philosophy. It shows that there is more to “you” than “you”. It’s that little part of us that knows we rely on love for others and this God in order to exist. It saddens us when we feel isolated in our relationships. Reaching out and forgiving is all we can do. That is how you know things were created to be enjoyed and beautiful.  You said (name omitted) made it all better, and that relationship branches out and pumps blood into all the other parts of you. Imagine if every relationship was like that. Then not only would we be the brain, but maybe the heart."

These are the words of Sarah H. East, my cousin and a dear friend of mine. 

"Imagine if every relationship was like that. Then not only would we be the brain, but maybe the heart." 

That's exactly how I feel, and that's exactly what I hope. 

The Universe and "Reality"


We as a family need to remember to love each other.

Someone Great told me that I must “not forget to love.”

Well, She said it to me, but I think it applies to everyone. I know that it does.

So,  when I get frustrated because someone says something ignorant, or something is misunderstood or we disagree or whatever—I love them.

I respect them and understand that none of them are acting outside of the way that they believe they should in accordance with their True Self (or at least what they think that is). 

Consciousness.

The earlier it’s learned, the easier life is. I know this.

I live this.

I love my brothers, my Mom and Dad, and my friends.

I would give my life for any one of them, and I would sacrifice my happiness for any of theirs.  This is something that I know as Truth. 

This is something that I would do. This is something that I have done before. 

If everyone lived like that, the world would be perfect. We would all live in heaven on earth. God and Jesus and Mohammed and Aunt Jemima would all descend from the metaphysical extra-dimensional realms and chill with us.

But when it feels like you’re the only one, the world gets heavy. And sometimes I feel like I don’t want to sacrifice anymore of my own happiness or thoughts or love or mySelf for others.

“For what?” I say. “So I can continue to feel lonely and put out by a society that is content to watch itself kill each other and rape each other’s spirits?”

It hurts me. Seeing the world for what it is really hurts sometimes.

And that’s when (name omitted) tells me that he felt the same way when he was really depressed. I feel the same way, depressed I mean.

It’s hard.

It’s an undertaking.

People say, “you can’t let all of that shit bother you,” or “it’s not your responsibility…”

They’re wrong.

They’re so wrong.

If I don’t recognize the issues, then who will? If it’s not my responsibility, then whose is it?

I’m telling you, it’s mine, but it’s also OURS.

Not yours, not just mine, but ours.

Humanity’s.

And I’ve realized it.

I see the light. I know (by feeling what he meant) what Jesus was talking about when he sacrificed.

He was a Master. He was a conscious mind making a conscious decision to save the selfish, immature people that put so much stock and meaning into things that weren’t important—earthly things.

I hate that term, earthly things. The things that are truly earthly aren’t really ‘earthly’ in the sense that we mean: secular.

To me, the earth is the most spiritual being we will ever come into contact with. The earth is basically our mother, the provider.

To think that we have literally everything we could ever need and more! From a chunk of wet rock floating, suspended as a part of a giant atom in space!!!

How incredible. And yet, we are concerned with trivial things that have no meaning like debt, money, the future, and the past, who marries who, etc.

The present is all that has meaning. The future means nothing until it becomes present.

The past only has meaning because of how much meaning we gave it when it was present. The past does not exist. The past is, in fact, that which no longer exists. And yet, for us, it’s so REAL. Why??? We dwell on the past, we spend so much energy—sending it to the past, instead of expending here in the present, or in honor of the future.

It’s funny how we think. More of a shame really, but something to overcome. It will be a joy when people realize how much they worry about things they needn’t worry about.

Which is why I won’t go to bed anxious anymore. I know that simply by having this conversation with myself, I have altered the universe. I have literally changed my present, as well. I feel better, I love my family and my friends, and everyone in between. I love the earth. I love everything that the earth is not. I am happy for myself and I am constantly amazed at the capacity for myself to think and converse as a single (yet multi-faceted) entity.

That’s spirituality at its finest. I love you, John.

“I love you, too, Buddy.”

I didn’t just type that. I heard it and felt it inside my own Being. That’s what it’s like being connected.

Imagine feeling close to "God" all the time. Are you able to? Do you know what that feels like? It’s the most beautiful feeling in the world. This is the feeling for which you search/have searched/will search your whole life.

When you’re close to yourSelf, you’re close to "God."

They’re one in the same.

“I love you, too, Buddy.” Haha, I heard my Self tell myself that. Thank you, John. I needed that.

That’s the God in me, loving me and looking out for me. It brings tears to my eyes when I feel it, when I establish that contact. That’s what makes all of this worth it.

This is meaning. This is meditation, real conscious thought. 

“I don’t know how to meditate.” WRONG. You wanna meditate? Smile. Smile for a little bit. Smile at others. Tell someone you love them.

Tell your Self that you love yourself!

Do you love yourself? You should! "God" does, right? Then why wouldn’t you?

Do you know what you’re doing when you tell yourself that? If you say you love "God," you’re saying you love yourself, but you feel like you’re expending energy on someone who isn’t really there, or that might not be reciprocated. Wrong! You’ve just been thinking of it too abstractly! Tell your Self that you love yourself. You’re still honoring and loving "God" because he made you, because you are "God." "God" can’t love you in the same way that we, here on earth, want to feel it. You are here on earth to learn what it’s like to be "God," and to love yourSelf and others as much as “God” would love you. That is what “God” wants for your life here, and that’s what he wants you to share with others.

This is knowing your life is full and you are whole.

That is the point of all of this. Love. For others and yourself.

I mean, your Self. It’s a beautifully fulfilling feeling when you’ve realized that you can get your Self to love yourself.  That’s all you need in life. It’s great when you can find love in another, but nothing can substitute the need for Self love. That love that you desire, that acceptance, that belonging—the reason we look for that in someone else is because we don’t know that we must first find it in ourselves. In fact, “love” shared with someone else is practically meaningless if you haven’t figured out that you love your Self, and that your Self loves you.

I feel like not a lot of people know what that means, but they will. Just as I do now.

I knew I wanted to write tonight… I wasn’t going to. I was going watch Trailer Park Boys until I passed out, but I didn’t.

This is all the proof anyone could ever want or need. We’re never alone.

There is always “God” (which is just energy/love/light/good—forces at work inside us and in the universe) –

Which, by the way I’d like to explain.

“Hive mind”

this is a term you know. The universe is basically a very complex brain in which we are suspended.

Don’t believe me? Take a look. 



http://www.exohuman.com/wordpress/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/neuron-galaxy.jpg



On the left, a brain. Electrical signals being sent across synapses; on the right, our universe—galaxies, planets, stars and of course us (somewhere).

This is what I’m talking about.

On the left, you have one mind. One person. Or in this case, one mouse.

But on the right, you have a much grander scale of the same EXACT operations. This is the concept of HIVE MIND.

In the universe, (or the hive mind—or the collective mind of humanity) there are forces at work, vibrations.

These vibrations travel along the synapses of the universe (across space). These vibrations, just like electrical impulses in the brain, have certain effects on the universe.

If I think to move my arm and it moves because of an electrical signal being sent from my brain, then the universe can also send signals and vibrations across ‘synapses’ to achieve a certain ‘movement’ or outcome.

Think of the universe (space) as the INTERNET for the hive mind, or humanity’s collective consciousness. Everything you think, say, do, act like, etc.—those actions have very real consequences!!!

You’re constantly sending out signals across this universal mind, and somewhere at the end of the vibration, you’re creating a very real action, a very real consequence (which is why you must be careful in the way you think and act!!!) – (think butterfly effect or KARMA)

You as a person, as a bit of consciousness given physical form on basically the hugest server that we can think of—you’re a single synapse!

You’re just a functioning part of the larger brain! If you’re living the way you should and putting out good vibes, then the world you see will be a better place. I used to be negative all the time, so most of my life circumstances or 'universal stimuli' were seemingly negative. But you can change that simply by changing the way you relate to your surroundings. 


In this video, scientists say that if you ask a quantum physicist about "measurement," you'll make him or her nervous. 

This is because scientists ALREADY KNOW (as in THIS IS FACT) that a SINGLE ATOM will behave in accordance with the expectations of the observer. 

I'm gonna say this again: THE ATOM BEHAVES IN ACCORDANCE WITH THE EXPECTATIONS OF THE OBSERVER. 

In other words, when we measure atoms, when we observe them, they will do whatever we want them to. We are literally capable of manipulating real-life/real-time MATTER. Simply by observing it, we are creating an experience for ourselves that otherwise WOULD NOT EXIST. 

Do you realize what this means? This means that we are able to manipulate our surroundings, literally anything you can think of. 

Quantum physicists "fear" the concept of Measurement because up until that point, up until there is actually someone looking at that singular atom, it does not exist in the way we think it does. That atom is literally all over the place--until someone comes to look at it. 

Why? Because our CONSCIOUS minds are continuously creating our "life experience." We are CREATORS, just as "God" is. Only now, we've discovered that we are literally manifesting our desires and our expectations at every single moment. 

Think with me for a moment: we created our own civilization. We built buildings, societies, towns, cities, networks, infrastructure--all of these things so that we could LIVE more easily. 

But people don't realize that we're also creating a UNIVERSAL INFRASTRUCTURE all the time. Because we are the Creator-Observers, we don't realize that our minds are doing this. We think that we're subject to this REALITY over which we have no control. 

WRONG. We are the ones creating and moulding our Earthly experience one thought and action at a time. 

If you think about it, by observing an atom we can create an outcome. Because we expect an atom to behave a certain way, it does. 

THAT IS FUCKING INSANE. WE AS CONSCIOUS HUMAN BEINGS ARE ABLE TO ALTER PHYSICAL MATTER WITH OUR MINDS AS WE ARE OBSERVING IT. 

Do you realize what this means?! 

We can change our circumstances, our life/universal circumstances by changing the way we LOOK at things! CHANGE YOUR PERSPECTIVE and you can ALTER REALITY. 

If we as human beings can all become conscious together of ourselves and of this scientific truth, we could literally alter the universe in which we exist.  

But this doesn't have to be on a grand scale, either. I mean, these scientists were looking at single atoms. What's cool is that EVERYTHING is made up of those same atoms! If you can manipulate one just by observing it and guiding its behavior with your conscious mind, then you can do the same for something that is made up of billions of atoms.

If we can change the behavior of a single atom, then can't we change the behavior of a larger entity? How about a person? How about a group of people? What about everyone on Earth? 

Think about it. If you change the way you expect someone will behave, then you also change your own behavior. If I go into a store thinking that the black guy in there is gonna rob it, then I'm sending that thought-vibration or signal into the universe. That expectation changes the way I behave towards that person, which in turn affects the way that person relates to me. 

We are creating our life/universal experience in real time. We are literally shaping our reality and the course of our life experience simply by thinking about it and carrying out actions. Whether or not we are CONSCIOUS of this fact will determine how much CONTROL you have over your life. 

If you are conscious of the fact that your life is a direct result of your thoughts, energetic output or "aura", and your actions, then LIFE is at your fingertips. You can literally live the way you want. 

*****This is the part when someone says something about African children starving, or having loved ones pass away, etc.*****

Here's what I say to that: AFRICAN CHILDREN ARE SUBJECT TO STARVATION AND GENOCIDE BECAUSE WE ALLOW IT TO HAPPEN. 

"Bullshit!" Don't believe me? Let me explain. 

Here we are on Earth. We are people, living organisms not yet fully aware or conscious of our creative powers. We have everything we need to survive and be fulfilled, provided by the Earth. 

Somewhere along the lines, a group of people decides that who they are and what they know is better than another group's. So, they infiltrate that group and impose their reality onto others. 

I love using the Native Americans as an example. 

When the white man came, they offered Native Americans goods and products in exchange for land. The Native Americans, being the generally conscious, good-natured people they were, said to the white man, "You want land for these things? You give us all of this stuff and all you want back is the Land? SURE! Hahaha, these guys want land in exchange for all of this stuff! Ha! SURE!" Because the natives saw the Earth as a shared realm, a provider for all. Then of course, they got wiped out and their beautiful culture and understanding of humanity is all but lost. 

But seriously, imagine this. Imagine I come across some land when humans first appeared on the planet. Imagine I ran onto a piece of land with an apple tree on it and CLAIMED it. I said, "This tree is mine and the land surrounding it is mine!" And then other people come up to me and want some apples because they're hungry. "No," I say, "this is my tree. Get your own land with a tree." 

So now, all of these people are looking for their own space. Some people have more apple trees and land than others. Some people have no land and no apple trees. Even though there are more than enough apples for everyone, and more than enough space for us all to be comfortable, we all got tricked into thinking that we could OWN natural resources for ourselves. 

This is how inequality is created. We have all of these different ideas that we have to live a certain way because that's how our SOCIETY works; that's our REALITY! 

Well, it's only that way because selfish people (people who aren't conscious of the harsh consequences of their actions towards others) are willing to take away or keep resources and other things the Earth provides out of the hands of our fellow human counterparts. 

So, I'll say it again. Because people are willing to make $40 billion a year in profit, exploit their own employees, own big houses, shop at WalMart, and buy things they don't need to make themselves feel like they fit in to society--other people suffer. 

Other people suffer injustices all over the world because there are people willing to IGNORE them and go on living the lives that they "DESERVE." If you work for everything you have, and you work hard, treat your employees right, and give back to your community, then you're doing more than most. 

But these individuals still think that the problems that exist in the world aren't their own. People aren't willing to sacrifice a tiny little bit just so others could share in some of the joys that we have. 

If we could save one penny for every dollar that America spends, we could feed all of the starving children all over the world for a long time. With one penny on the dollar. But we won't do it. Why not? 

Let me ask you this: why don't you do it yourself? Do you have to wait for the government to institute some kind of policy? Do you have to vote on it? Do you have to wait for others??? 

You see, this is an unfortunate part of this scientific truth about our reality: there are others who are willing to manipulate fellow human beings for their own benefit. 

And we forget that WE CAN BE MANIPULATED JUST AS EASILY AS OUR REALITY. 

People created government. People created policies. People created banks. People created unfair laws against LGBT individuals. People created unfair laws about medicine. Food. Water. Energy. 

These are all things that everyone should have access to, simply because the Earth has the capacity to provide them for us: food, water, love, happiness, fulfillment. Consciousness. 

However, because there are individuals willing to deny these things to others, we experience inequality.  But we also experience some amount of helplessness. We think we don't have the power to change circumstances simply because we're taught that we have to do things a certain way. 

We think that it's our REALITY that people suffer every day. We think it's our REALITY that people are homeless, hungry, thirsty, sad, sick, hurt, etc. 

We THINK that this is our REALITY because we have been TRICKED by others, by our human counterparts who are very clever.

*****OUR REALITY IS A DIRECT RESULT OF OUR RELATIONSHIPS WITH EACH OTHER. EVERYONE.*****



But if we can overcome this sense of helplessness, and say, "You know what? NO PROBLEM IS TOO BIG FOR ME. I AM A CREATOR, I SHAPE MY REALITY AND I AM CONSCIOUS OF THE REAL PROBLEMS." 

If we can overcome feeling like we aren't able to affect a change, WE WILL AFFECT A CHANGE. 

I am affecting one right now. You are reading this. You are thinking. Therefore you are changing REALITY. 

The more people we can get to think and live in this way, in a CONSCIOUS way, the sweeter our reality will become. We will literally live in a heaven on Earth. 

***THIS IS THE POINT OF LIFE*** to promote and share consciousness to create a reality in which we as Creators, Gods, conscious beings and above all Humans, can coexist and share an experience more beautiful and fulfilling than anything we have ever known. 

This is how we create our reality. Our reality does not yet exist; it is not something to which we are subject. We are creating it, either consciously or subconsciously, and we live in what we create every day. The more conscious you are of this, the more you will be able to do to enjoy it and make it what you want. What we all want. 

We’re literally living in a giant COMPUTER (or matrix if you wanna say it) and our reality is a direct result of our output. Think of it this way: your body is a computer for your consciousness. It is a vehicle that is used inside a matrix (universe) to illustrate and convey meaning and consciousness. 

If you're like me, then you're tired of watching the news and seeing death, destruction, sadness, exploitation, hunger, pain, hate, suffering... 

Things don't have to be this way. And I'm going to be someone that dedicates his life to changing it. I know how I want to live, I know how I want to feel, and I want those same things for everyone on Earth. We all deserve them. We all have the same capacity for thought, love, consciousness and fulfillment. 

We just have to stop denying those things to others, and we will have them for ourselves. 

You get out what you put in. Well, you have to live in the stimuli that you put out. So, you gotta be good if you wanna see good. 

You have to love if you want more love.

You have to forgive if you want forgiveness.

You have to be patient.

You have to understand.

You must be compassionate.

You must give and share in what you are so lucky to have. 

And you must do and be all of things not only with others, but ALSO WITH YOURSELF.

Don’t forget about your Self. He or she is always around, but they barely get you to give them the time of day.

So much of our output, our signals, our vibrations – OUR FRIGGIN ENERGY – is wasted on being things that are of little universal consequence, or things WE DON’T WANT TO BE/DO.

Why?

Because we’re manipulated and tricked into doing so. Don’t be like that.
Be better.

Think better.

And the result you experience IN YOUR LIFETIME will be better.

I love you.

John